As being one of the stable Jackson, aside of Rebbie. She speaks in a snippet interview with ABC set for wednesday.

She speaks up about Micheal Jackson's death. When asked who she thought should be blamed for his death she said :"He was the one that was administering. I think he is responsible." He being Dr. Conrad Murray.

On how she's doing ever since : It's been a tough year. You have your days where it's just really -- it's hard to believe. And a day doesn't go by that I don't think about him."

And how she found out the news : "I was at my house in New York. You know, another day. Another morning. And I get a call ... [my assistant] said, 'Your brother's been taken to the hospital. It's on CNN right now.' I called everyone. There's a line busy or -- someone wasn't picking up. I spoke to mother. I spoke to Tito. I spoke to my nephew Austin. I spoke to my sister La Toya. I told them to call me when they got to the hospital. And I remember thinking nobody's calling me back, so I tried calling again, and that's how I found out that he was no longer ... I couldn't believe it. It just didn't ring true to me. It felt like a dream," she said. "It's still so difficult for me to believe. It's, you know, you have to accept what is. But it's hard. You have to move on with your life. You have to accept what is and I understand that."

She continued talking about Mike's favorite song and how it was like growing as a jackson : My brother's favorite song is 'Smile.' And I thought Jermaine sang it beautifully, beautifully. And that's his favorite song as well. ...There being some sort of a closure, I suppose, at that time.We were incredibly close. A lot of similarities, his love for children and me being a baby. We would practically do everything together from morning to night every day. Everyday. We'd feed all the animals, took care of the babies. All the animals -- giraffes, mouflon sheep, deer, they had fawned. All kinds of animals, all kinds of birds. And I remember I would come home from school with the hay like I'm going to a ranch.

She continued about when growing up, papa Jackson forced her into what she became today even tho she wanted to be in law and acting : "My father said, 'I think you'll make more money singing than as an actress... And that was it. Obviously, he saw something. And it's sad that it takes away your childhood. If I had to do it all over again, would I go about it the same way? I would really have to think about that."

She answered question on if her father was abusive :"You have to keep in mind that I'm the baby...I think it's old school. And that may extrapolate into -- a -- being a little abusive. Do you understand what I'm saying? I was very young, very young. I can't remember the exact age, but very young, younger than ten, younger than nine. ...I remember when I had called him daddy, and he said, 'No, you call me Joseph, I'm Joseph to you.' Never said it again. We called mother -- everybody called mother, mother. So I don't know, I don't know why. And I've never asked. I've never questioned it. It is what it is, and I just let it go. Joseph. I would love to have experienced what it would be like to celebrate Christmas and birthdays. ...I had my first birthday party when I was 23 years old. And I'd never celebrated my birthday before then. You kind of feel like you missed something. But then again, you have to, to say to yourself, it's like a catch-22 -- well, how can you miss what you didn't have? You know? I -- we grew up pretty quickly."

Then She spoke about the last time she saw Mike, two days before her birthday :"We had a lot of fun, laughing. ...I was being silly, acting silly. And he was sitting in front of me and just cracking up, laughing at me. I was being loud. And he thought it was so funny. I was just being stupid, acting silly."

Janet is the only Jackson that i like and care for. So I'm sure I'm speaking for everyone when I say that we all hope she's doing good and hoping for only the best (and tunes!).